मैंने अपना किरदार खोया… और खुद को पाया

स्क्रीन सफेद हो गई। क्रैश? मेसेज? बस…ग़ायब।

मेरा किरदार—कैरो, समुद्र से प्रभावित सफर-करता—जिसे महीनों प्यार से पलाया, बिना संदेश, हटा।

मैं Brooklyn में हुए, हवा में धड़क -धड़क* हवा में। औरफिर: मुझे पताचला—मुझे anger आया ? मुझे आज़াद महसूस हुआ।

‘अपनी पहचान’ पर प्रभाव

मुझे समझ मेंआय:गेम्स भगोड़े -जगत् (digital jungle)थीं,जहाँमुझे ‘कोई’बनकरखड़एलगतथि —ओज़-घट-खड़-खड़! Animal Haven में,उठ-उठ-उठ-खड़! प्रत्येक पशुचिह्न इश्तहाक ,इच्छषट ! Lekin jab Kairo gaya… toh koi prove karna bhi nahi tha. Woh raat main maine login nahi kiya. balki ek purane journel ko khola jo insomia ke raat-bhar me dibbe se banaye huye samudri jeevan ke chitraon se bhara hua tha—jo screen par kabhi nahi chalne wale the lekin yaadon me zindagi bhar thi.

Gane ka maqsad jeetna nahi hai

Hum jeet ko anjani samajhte hain. Lekin agar kuch ant tareeko fail ho toh? Toh kya yeh ek aawaaz hai? in Animal Haven mein har session rules thi: sahi tarah soch kar bet lagao, odds track karo. Lekin ek rule nahin tha: agar tumhara avatar bilkul gayab ho jaye toh? to maine khud se pucha: jab koi dekh raha na ho toh khelna kya hai? kaise rehna jab performance ki zaroorat na ho? grief ko data points mein measure karne ki zaroorat na ho? dhoondne ka mahaul jahan hum sirf data point nahi hote! aur dheere-dheere—jaise sardar aata hai—kuch andar badal gaya. game toot gai? Nahin… main toot gaya tha. nahin… bas khul gaya tha.

Ek Naya Tarika Khel Saka Jaa Sakta Hai

Ab main alag tarah se khelta hoon—not for rewards or rankings—but for moments: waves sound just right on my headphones, color palette softens into dusty rose and slate blue, single dolphin appears—not as a prize but as witness, thenn I remember: this isn’t entertainment. It’s ritual. It’s healing disguised as leisure. some players seek trophies; i now seek stillness—with intention, silence with meaning, and stories that don’t end with “game over” but with “maybe tomorrow” instead.

Tum Apni Avatar Nahin Ho

tumhe jeetna padta hai taaki maanayi jaoge? Nahi. tumhe perform karna padta hai taaki belong karoge? Nahi. tumhare emotions valid hain chahe wo leaderboards ya analytics dashboards mein fit na ho sakein. i have lost something online—and felt hollow afterward—I see you. maybe your character didn’t return. but your soul did. what game helped you heal? Share your story anonymously below—your voice matters more than any score.